OOC: Again with the I'M SORRY!

Yeah...I know. Can I say sorry again that some of my tags are really old?   Like seven days old. :|

It's like I have partial block, some threads I can spit out automatically  and others I need to think on and get into emotional and sometime dark nasty little places in Natasha's headspace she doesn't want me poking at. (Here's looking at you, world_made_free)

I swear I'm not ignoring ANYONE on purpose, I have the threads bookmarked and waiting for her to be able to reply ICly and not half ass them. It's not you, it's me. 

Also, guess who has to work overtime this week? *points at self* Not gonna help the lag but it is what it is. 

Thanks for hanging tough with me while I suck <3

The Head Canon Post (WIP Forever)

In which I line out all the shit unique to 'my' Tasha.

ALL VERSES/PSLs
When Natasha becomes emotional ( Good, bad, whatever) she may unconsciously slip into a Russian accent or even speaking in Russian without realizing it. As the mun does not speak Russian, these 'slips' will be denoted in quoted italics similar to the way they are separated from English in the comics.

Natasha lost most of her hair when she was nearly decapitated on a mission. The only reason she still has a head is because Coulson saved her at the last second.

When Natasha speaks that she has 'red in her ledger'  she wants to 'wipe out', she means not only the deaths she caused but also her association with the Red Room.

She carries a disgusting amount of cash on her . Thousands and thousands of dollars. Somehow, no purse.

She fears three things in this world. Drowning, The Hulk, and falling in love. All three make her feel like she has no control whatsoever.

MCU Canon (BlackHawk)
Budapest. There was sex. Just once, and it was the best she'd ever had because it actually mattered to both of them.

Bump in the Night
Natasha ran away not to find Steve but to hide from the fact everyone else could move on but she couldn't. She never told Clint she was going.

Fractured Rifts
Natasha wasn't lying about nothing else mattering. If given the chance she'd have taken Clint and find a new 'world' for them to be together on. She'd let everyone else die if it meant he lived, even herself.

PSL: Why?
Tasha didn't realize she cared about Steve until his mind was erased. She was so caught up in getting him back she didn't realize until after that she wouldn't go that far for anyone else. She never plans on telling him about that incident. Or that she's seen him naked already.


Natasha was deemed too volatile to receive the Russian version of the Super Soldier Serum. They couldn't control her as it was, and enhancing those already dangerous tendancies was deemed too large of a risk to take on The Black Widow.

PSL: Project Miranda
Tasha likes it when Clint can't sleep and needs to bunk with her. 

She's jealous he and Phil found each other in a way she's yet to find anyone.

She doesn't remember when her real birthday is. Clint chose one for her. October 7th.

PSL: It's Complicated
She wasn't as drunk as she acted when Bucky walked her home. She was just afraid of doing something stupid like kissing him and not having something to blame it on besides alcohol.

PSL:Pie
Tasha is jealous of how optimistic and happy Steph is all the time, but she worries it's all an act, too.

What matters is on the inside - Locked to <user site="livejournal.com" user="steverogers_cpt" title=

Tasha knew it was reckless, dangerous and stupid, but she marched down to Fury's office after he talk with Steve and layed it on the line. Not all of it of course, but the Director wasn't blind with that one eye of his. He could tell Agent Romanoff was taking far more than simply a professional interest in Steve Rogers. Wisely, he didn't call her on it.

After hours, she finally had the clearance, the team of lower level agents to help them, the files on how Erskine had done it and a hell of a lot of motivation to get the man she...whatever it was she was feeling for Steve, back to being the first Avenger.

Now all she had to do was convince Steve he could stop hiding and come with. You can't make Captain America if you don't have the key ingredient. 

My tweets

• Sun, 13:57: (cleaning up after work. BBL)
• Sun, 18:09: (LJ tag time. Will be slow...and wibblly. So many sads :| )
• Mon, 04:12: OOC: Again with the I'M SORRY! http://t.co/7PSlk33h
• Mon, 05:00: The Head Canon Post (WIP Forever) http://t.co/7hSfJmKT
• Mon, 05:32: What matters is on the inside - Locked to steverogers_cpt http://t.co/ESMhzi43
• Mon, 06:59: Not enough sleep. As usual.
• Mon, 11:17: Wonder if that was out of line...
• Mon, 11:54: RT @indestructigirl: (( That moment when you get a tag so powerful that you want to cry but you're at work and people will think you're ...